Watching Gifted Kids Watch Freaky Me by Dan Senn

  

As I spoke

I stepped outside myself

to watch the seventeen year olds

and to see the words

I had spoken many times

about mechanisms

that knew nothing about disciplines

and disciples

who were helplessly undisciplined

knowing full well

I would have never qualified

to be one of these blond haired listeners

watching me talk

and wondering whether any of them

would ever have an original idea

fully knowing it most unlikely

seeing

as by their age

they were hopelessly

part of that chain

of gifted raising gifted raising gifted

raising our taxes

for innovation and excellence

and other power programs

and grants galore

that ignore the different

that suffocate the odd

while using words

like "cutting edge"

and "in terms of this" and "that"

knowing full well

that if I was found out

these fucking little Nazis

would tell the boss

that I said fucking

and that would be the last

of my presidential invitations

and suited subversions

impressing "heck" and "darn"

and "doctor this" and "that"

thinking,

perhaps,

it was still possible

to redirect resources

from the manikin managers

into some real institutional "damage"

while showing up

on time

smiling

and pretending

the dead could speak.

Freak.

The freak could speak.

 

©1991 Dan Senn

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